I can, however, type her story on my tablet while cuddling her.
We were told to be at the hospital at 10:30, so we had to say goodbye to our kids at 10. That was really rough, even though I knew they would perfectly happy and more spoiled with their grandparents then with us... there's just something about leaving your children that makes one a little sad. Devin has never slept away from me before.
They hooked me up to my iv and then it was just a waiting game... which ended up being longer then expected, due to an emergency c-section. It was supposed to be at 12:30... by about 1:15, I was starting to freak out a little... not because they were late, but because I just didn't want to do it anymore. I guess it was too late to back out at that point though.....
They ended up taking me back around 1:30, and that is the part I hate the most. I think it's really mean that they take a terrified woman away from her husband into a FREEZING room and stick a foot long needle into her spine (just sayin'). It felt like forever, but it was probably only 10 minutes.
They finally put up that blue sheet and let Alex come in. I think I squeezed his hand too tight because he finally stopped letting me hold his hand and just rubbed my arm. Last time my c-section was fast, but this time was NOT fast. Aja was transverse (meaning laying side to side), and it took them a really long time to get out. Alex said they had to cut my incision bigger to get her out... I really didn't want to know that.
When they finally got her out, the room was completely silent, until I heard a nurse on the phone calling for a NICU team. Those are definitely not the words you want to hear laying on a table with your stomach cut open and not able to jump up and grab your baby.
It was probably only a minute, but it felt like years before she was laying on the table and started screaming, just as the NICU team walked in. It was the most beautiful sound in the world!
She was perfect... every tiny inch of her. She weighed 5 lbs 7 oz and was 18 inches long. They said she is SGA (which means Small for Gestational Age), and that included extra tests and extra observation... but she is PERFECT! She is just small.
We are so happy to have her in our family! All of us (even Devin) is madly in love with her. Just today as Devin was leaving for the gym with Alex he had to give Aja a kiss goodbye and tell her he loved her 3 times before he left. Alex and Ally sometimes battle over who gets to hold her.
And me? Well, she is the one perfect piece of the puzzle that I didn't know was missing. I love this quote and it completely describes how I feel; "No one will ever know how much I love you. You are the only one that knows how my heart beats from the inside." She is such innocense, beauty and perfection in one tiny, little bundle and I feel so blessed to have her in my life.
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