Tomorrow

our family changes forever... but in a good way.

It's exciting and in the last weeks of pregnancy you are usually analyzing every twinge, wondering if it is the start of labor... and pacing anxiously for the moment when you can say "this is it!" Then, rather then thinking, "oh my gosh, I am having a baby!" you are thinking of the pain, breathing through it, and in some cases wondering how soon you can get the epidural.

I think it is better that way, not being able to think how very soon your life will be forever altered. But I learned last week, that time was up and due to some health issues, she is coming... tomorrow. Only I am not busy breathing through contractions or timing them to decide when we should head to the hospital. I know she is coming in 1 day, and I know she is coming by c-section. I don't like it this way, not at all!

Only, I know that tomorrow I finally will know what this little girl looks like. I will see if she has dark hair like her sister or blonde hair like her brother. I will get to feel her sweet little fingers curl around mine and kiss her tiny little nose. I will get finally see the baby that was destined to be mine.

I can't wait to see my children see her for the first time. I can't wait to see her big sister hold her and her eyes light up at the miracle of someone so new. I can't wait to see Devin meet her for the first time. I don't think he will be too interested in her, but who knows, because his ability to love is infinite.

And I want to see my husband hold her, his big hands and arms wrapped around her tiny, little body. I want to see him kiss her smooshy little cheeks, and swaddle her in a pink, fluffy blanket. I want to see her weave her way into his heart, and know that she has him wrapped around that dainty, little finger.

So, rather then all the fears and unkowns, that is what I am focusing on... my baby. Because she will definitely be worth it. So say a quick prayer for all of us, and the journey that we are about to take together.